Born February 10, 1988
Died December 7, 1992


KYLE IS WITH US, AND ALWAYS WILL BE...

...FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS

Family and friends - Please add any pictures, special memories, stories, thoughts, feelings and poems to Kyle's site, showing all of the ways that Kyle has left his heart prints on you.

Please make a tribute, to honor and remember our Kyle, on his newly created web pages.

Thank you to everyone for visiting Kyle's new web pages. Anything you share, because of your love for Kyle, will truly help us make it through our most difficult journey of all.  And, most of all, whatever you post here, in memory of Kyle, means so very much to me, and all of our family.

Remembering Kyle...

We will never forget our Kyle, or forget what he taught us about life and love, for he left his heart prints on all of our hearts.

Kyle was simply an angel, touching down on earth, for just 4 1/2 short years. Not near enough time for us, but just enough time to make a difference in each of our lives.

Our brave little soldier fought his greatest battle, against cancer, with every ounce of his heart and soul. Now, we fight our greatest battle trying to survive life without him.

At the end of Kyle's journey on earth, his little body could take no more. So, his life was traded for angel wings...and he soared gently into Heaven.

Ever since Kyle has been gone, he has watched over each one of us...every moment of every day. I know he is there...but I still want him here, instead...



Creation Of Remembering Kyle on Memory.com

This site was recently created, just prior to Kyle's birthday, in 2007. And, it has already proven to be an incredible support. I wish something like this would have existed when Kyle first died. But, I am so grateful that it does exist, now.

One of the things that I think about, as do other grieving parents, is that their child will be forgotten by others. Especially being that these web pages weren't developed until many years after Kyle's death.  The family and friends visiting here, will not be like it would have been back when losing Kyle was so new. So, it's comforting to have a place like this, where there are shared thoughts, stories, memories and pictures of Kyle. And, I'm hopeful that each time I ready something written, it will be proof that no one can ever forget our Kyle.

The unbearable pain that comes, with the death of a child, never stops, or lessens. And, the need for support, and understanding, never ends, either.  The truth is that life becomes and unending challenge of moment-by-moment survival for the rest of our lives.  After Kyle's death, and every day since, life had to go on...somehow.  But, it continued in the form of a very different life...simply learning how to try to live without him.  And, life does go on, because it has to.  But, life has never been the same, or as fulfilled, as it was when Kyle was here.  He is missed, and loved, every moment of every single day.  And, that will never change.

Kyle's heart continues to beat, in all of us, always.  But, especially on the days when I still long to hold him...and can't.  Those days, that are most difficult, are the days when Kyle's heart beat takes over for mine...

IMPORTANT LINKS:

Please visit these websites, and see their importance.  Some are for our family's support, some for surviving the loss of a child and others are for supporting the world of childhood cancer and it's research:

www.rememberingjimmy.memory-of.com - Created in honor of my Brother-In-Law Jimmy

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/ForeverInOurHeartsAfterLeukemia/
"Forever In Our Hearts After Leukemia" was recently created, by Beth Anne (Kyle's Mom), for parents who have lost a child to leukemia

http://www.stbaldricks.org - St. Baldrick's is the world's biggest volunteer-driven fund raising program! Eight years of events have taken place in 18 countries, and 48 US states.  These efforts have raised over $49.5 million, and over 71,000 heads have been shaved for childhood cancer.

http://www.alexslemonade.org - Foundation was started by an incredible little girl, who had cancer, and wanted to have have lemonade stands to help other cancer kids.  By the time Alex was eight, at the time of her death, she had already raised over $1 million.  Since then, over 8,000 lemonade stands have raised more than $20 million!

http://www.loneliesthour.org - Wonderful resource for families of children that are newly diagnosed with neuroblastoma (a rare form of childhood cancer)

http://www.candlelighters.org - Childhood Cancer Foundation

http://www.leukemia-lymphoma.org - Leukemia & Lymphoma Society

http://www.igive.com - Percent of purchase is donated to your designated  causes (Shop at over 440 favorite stores and give to any of 24,367 causes)

http://www.bearnecessities.org/ - Pediatric Cancer Foundation - Founded by Kathleen Casey, a cancer mom from Children's Memorial Hospital in Chicago

Your Anniversary, Today... / Kyle's Mommy / 12/7/08

My Kyle,

There are no words to describe how much I miss you. The amount of years you've been gone is nothing but unbelievable to me. And, the amount of years don't make a difference how much I miss you, or love you. And, no doubt, the longing will continue for my lifetime. The need to hold my little boy, in my arms, the need to hug you, kiss you, take care of you and watch you grow...that never goes away. And, neither does my love for you.

You have taught me everything about love lasting forever. You have taught me everything about fighting to survive...despite the obstacles. You have taught me about living life...no matter how hard it gets. But, especially you taught me to never give up!

I continue to live life...an entirely different life than before you left this earth. I am happy, in a different sense, and am so very grateful for the people I love, for the people who love me...and for the people who love you and never, ever forget you!

I have peace knowing that your suffering ended when your life ended. Mine began, but I'd take mine over yours without hesitation. I just wish you were here, with me, and life would be complete...completely happy, and completely the way I dreamed our family would be.

Living life without my child has been the greatest challenge of my life. It has made everything else that happens so very simple. Nothing can get the better of me, anymore. Life's lessons have been hard, but good. As I've learned what's most important because of your illness and death...

I don't know what I'd do without Paul, and your brothers. They are my lifeline. They are my joy. They are such gifts in this life. And, Uncle Mike and Grandma...they share every moment of pain, and happiness, and their support and love is incomparable. You live in everyone, as you have touched the hearts like no other. The rest of my family, and friends, that have stood by my side, never waiting for me to "get on with it", or "get over it"...those are the ones that love you the most, too. They knew you, Collin and I before...and they know us, and continue to love all of us, always.

I have tried to teach your brothers about the lessons you've left behind. And, the love that never ends. I think they understand so much more than most adults ever will. As they've loved and lost, far too many times in their young lives. They feel they were robbed of you, and I think so, too. Yet, they have learned how to live life, and love, because of you, and because of others we've loved and lost along the way.

So, as a family, we've had very tough times, but have lived the most loved lives, too. I recently told Collin that the depth of pain we feel, is as deep as the love we've received. That gift of love is what our loved ones leave behind. And, there are some people who will never feel such love in their entire lifetime... I wholeheartedly believe, and feel that, so very deep in my heart and soul. And, you are the one that showed that to me, first...and hardest...

I will miss you, and love you, forever, my Kyle.

And, of course, I will always love you up to the chocolate moon,

Forever loving you...Mommy